A while ago (December 6th), I posted an article titled ‘Truth and Doubt.’ In it, I shared my doubts about Christianity. It was pretty big for me and I’m sure it was big for you if you know me well.
You all showed a lot of care and prayed for me like crazy. And, I think, especially at first, I kind of felt it. (The prayer, I mean.) I didn’t see everything in brighter shades or.. I don’t know… Turn invisible or something. But I felt like my thinking was changing.
For a long time, I felt like I believed again. I still had all the same… misgivings. And I still do. But I just believed it all again, no matter my doubts.
In a sense, this hasn’t gone away in the last few months. I’ve just had this sureness that God exists, whether or not I can understand everything.
But it’s still hard. It’s hard for me to just accept the Bible. And it’s hard for me to pray at times. But I’m trying to return.
I still don’t really know how it’s goin’. I’m not sure what’s to happen. But I want to know Christ, just as I wanted to know Christ three months ago and three years ago.
I want to have Christ’s power in me. I don’t want to just go around being me and having my power and ‘my’ talent and my works.
Thank you all for your encouragement, your kind emails and comments, your talks with me. I have been so blessed by all of you. Keep praying. Please, keep praying.